Feeling awful

So here I am feeling fatter than fat. Yuck.... I can remember when I was 100 thinner than I am now and I thought I was fat then. If only I could have controlled my life from then till now I wouldn't be in this situation. I quit smoking 3 weeks ago tomorrow( Smoked for 12 years ), so now I will be able to do this with better ease than if I was still smoking like I was. Its October 1st and I am going to try my darnedest to lose 40 pounds by Jan 1st. YES this goal is large and I'm not completely set on reaching it but moving towards it, is enough for me right now. Wish me luck!